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Thought you were something different...

Mar. 26th, 2006 | 07:54 pm
mood: loved loved
music: Everything I'm Not // The Veronicas

That's it... twenty five pages... a year later. I've finally come to realise that I have to accept this and I need to start moving on with my life, but it still hurts some days. Monday was the absolute hardest day, I sobbed so much when I got home from school. The days are getting better though, it doesn't hurt so much. I have a lot to look forward to...

Oh no don't go changing...Collapse )

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Every day just seems so long...

Mar. 23rd, 2006 | 07:07 pm
mood: thoughtful thoughtful
music: Heavily Broken // The Veronicas

Cos I'm heavily broken and I don't know what to do...Collapse )

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I'm looking for a song to sing...

Mar. 21st, 2006 | 09:35 pm
mood: alright alright
music: Song to Sing // Hanson

One of the only things that comforts me when I'm sitting in my room crying is when I get chills and I know you're there with me. Toujours et pour toujours. :) Thank you for giving me memories to make me smile... even when everything is falling apart.

Don't cry the fight ain't over unless you let it pass you by...Collapse )

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What are you hoping for...?

Mar. 19th, 2006 | 07:31 pm
mood: cold cold
music: 23 // Jimmy Eat World

Je t'aime, Popeye. Tourjours et pour tourjours.

You sail along forever...Collapse )

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Cos I miss you babe and I don't wanna miss a thing...

Mar. 16th, 2006 | 09:43 pm
mood: sad sad
music: I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing // Aerosmith

Is it so much to ask to have these relationships back? And is it so hard to ask for me to get over this so I don't have to feel so hurt and wish we could talk. Fuck.

I don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep...Collapse )

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Time, it can fly like the wind...

Mar. 13th, 2006 | 11:40 pm
mood: tired tired
music: Inside Your Mind // Ryan Cabrera

Fifty one weeks later... Well, fifty one weeks since I last had my grandpa in my life... it's been a little less than fifty one weeks since the funeral... but yeah. I've been missing him a hell of a lot lately, much more than I usually let myself. I don't know if it's because I've finally realised that things are starting to become out of my control, or if it's just because I'm refusing to let myself believe that it's been a year. Hell, maybe it's a combination of the two.

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At least I'lm gonna know what it's like to be alive...

Mar. 11th, 2006 | 06:56 pm
mood: cold cold
music: Alive // Melissa O'Neil

Have you ever gone through something and months later, for some reason or another, felt the exact same way that you did when you were going through whatever it was that you did? That is currently how I'm feeling regarding the upcoming year anniversary. I look outside and it's like it's last year all over again and it makes me sad. I wish it was easier to deal with losing someone... I wish it could be as easy as it has been with dealing with being hurt by people. At least those people are still there, at least you're given a second chance, I guess. I guess a broken heart doesn't heal completely but I'm getting there; it's getting there.

I wanna run with a reckless emotion...Collapse )

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Mar. 10th, 2006 | 06:06 pm
mood: lonely lonely
music: Iris // Goo Goo Dolls

March Break, it's finally here... When everyone else is looking forward to the week off, all I see it as is another week where I'm home alone being bored. Three weeks of being sick is brutal, I honestly cannot wait to get back after March Break... man, that's going to be a tough week. *sigh* As I haven't updated this in a few days, here's a sizable chunk of the memoir-thing.

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be...Collapse )

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You showed me love...

Mar. 7th, 2006 | 10:07 pm
mood: sad sad
music: Angel of Mine // Monica

I have nothing to write tonight...

What you mean to me, you'll never know...Collapse )

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Five hundred twenty five thousand moments so dear...

Mar. 6th, 2006 | 12:58 am
mood: sick sick
music: Seasons of Love // Rent

It's one in the morning, I'm awake because I feel pretty gross, so I decided to update with this. This is more me rambling on about some of my thoughts at the time than actual events, so... I dunno. Kind of like me now. Now I just need to remember to stop pushing myself to do too much when I'm sick. *slaps wrists* I swear I'm not helping myself get better. I'm going to use tomorrow to rest up and get some much needed homework done. Take care ya'll.

Five hundred twenty five thousand minutes...Collapse )

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